I haven’t posted much on here recently, but my latest update is that I’ve undergone a pretty intense surgery- rhinoplasty.
I’ve wanted a nose job for as long as I can remember. The mean comments from people when I was younger didn’t help: ‘hook nose’ ‘Dorito nose’ or constantly being compared to a ‘witch’ (my frighteningly pale complexion doesn’t help). But yes, unfortunately the humped ‘Roman’ nose runs in my mother’ side of the family and rather than get her lovely flawless skin, I got her nose.
The Roman or ‘Aquilline’ nose: one that has a prominent humped bridge visible from the side profile.
The Roman nose usually finds its roots in Greeks and Italians, who might I add actually suit it! But with my very English and very pale, petite face, this nose has always looked out of place.
I’ve always been incredibly self conscious about it. The comments from others didn’t help- they only reaffirmed what I already thought about myself. That it was big, ugly, and very noticeable. I hoped my obsession with my nose would subside over time. Other body issues I had such as that with my weight I managed to overcome and handle as I matured, but this particular insecurity I could just never shake. It’s your nose. What can you do to cover it up? Nothing.
So eventually I grew tired of constantly worrying about it. In any social situation, panicking thinking about who is looking at me from the side profile. When I’m lying next to my boyfriend, covering up my nose with my hand. Un tagging myself from practically every club photo. I realised this just wasn’t going to go away, and while I’m a firm believer in accepting yourself I also think that if changing something would make you happier and more confident- go for it.
My Nose from the front- not quite so bad, but still a bit crooked.
So with the savings I had, and an incredibly supportive family who were prepared to financially support me as my 21st birthday present- I went ahead with it. I had my consultation with Dr Lucian Ion (a true genius) who showed me an online face morph of what he can do.
I fell in love with it straight away. I booked my surgery, at that time 4 months away.
I had the surgery last week, and am still feeling pretty rough. I can’t breathe through my nose at all (it doesn’t help that I already had a cold), it’s constantly bleeding and leaking, my throat is very sore, and my entire face is swollen. Here is just one picture showing quite how bad the swelling is.
So yeah, it’s pretty sore and I’m feeling pretty rough. The procedure went well though with no complications. Dr Ion and my anaesthetist did such a good job of making me feel calm in preparation for the surgery. I was released the same day, and have been at home feeling sorry for myself ever since.
The cast comes off on Tuesday and I couldn’t be more excited. I can already see the difference in tip reduction and the difference from the side, despite the cast and the immense swelling.
This is something I’ve kept quiet about for a long time, I’ve even been hesitant to tell my friends and family about it because I know how extravagant it sounds. You’re doing what?! Why? Its just difficult to explain without sounding self obsessed and vain, but it really isn’t like that. It’s just something I felt I really needed to do, and I’m so glad I did. If anyone has any questions about the procedure, the after effects or the surgeon I used please feel free to ask!
– Elena x